

Even when I try, I'm not happy with it. I thought taking a break would be good for my mental health, but I'm still stressed as ever about my looks and if anything I'm extra exhausted even though I'm probably doing less at work. I can't keep my eyes open, I'm not getting my workout in, and I honestly think my injuries everyone thinks I'm overreacting about are getting worse. It hurts to walk and it hurts to sleep. If I make it to 40 I'll honestly be surprised.