Why I understand when you guys unfollow - yay another essay ..

Why I understand when you guys unfollow - yay another essay about my lack of content. I think I said on my insta, my husband lost his job, so I've been doing extra hours at my job. I'm trained on an order picker machine, the kind where you wear a harness and go in the air to get product. The problem is a lot of those times the product is a trolling motor and those are heavy as hell. So with balancing on a pallet, 30 feet in the air, trying to pull a 90lb, an expensive motor onto the pallet, I think I've been wrenching on my back and can barely bend. I've been crying almost every day because I can't bend over to reach my shoes, but to lift my leg up high enough to reach them is excruciating. I'm exhausted in all senses. My headaches are more common. I had plans to do pictures today but can barely sit up. As a present my husband wanted to buy me a piercing this weekend but idk if that's still happening. I have a trip in a month I've been looking forward to and was hoping to plan content but I can't make those promises.

What I don't understand - people leaving my sites when I don't post a lot, although it's free. Like if I charged a month and was never on, I could see people being mad. Trust me, I'm mad I'm not on here too. I would rather be feeling pretty, taking pictures right now instead of laying around.

I said I'd try to do workout videos but that seems to have been postponed again. I can do just candid stuff like laying in bed or in the bathroom, it just wouldn't be fancy. I keep trying to think of ways to be more interactive and maybe do videos (but I'm embarrassed) or start a threads (but I'm boring) so idk. Maybe I'll try to vlog my trip next month and you can guess where I'm going. No where exciting in my opinion, but I like to travel so I'm excited.