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Mental health- update 🥰 I want to feel safe here and have th..

Added 2022-06-28 15:16:37 +0000 UTC

Mental health- update 🥰 I want to feel safe here and have the opportunity to share all my thoughts, so if you don't want to read sad personal thoughts then skip this post 🙏🏻 Some of you know about the whole situation some of you probably don't. A few years ago, a person appeared in my life who initially seemed like a good person, but after a while her true intentions came to light. This person turned out to be obsessively jealous, the consequences of which I still feel today. Because of her poor behavior and false rumors, many things had happened to me - to the point where people sent me d3ath wishes. Recently the situation was slipping out of control again: the same person, or someone from her environment, has even gone so far as to write false accusations to companies with which I cooperate (the situation is already clarified - it is easy to refute false accusations with hard evidence). Stalking me on the internet, screening most of the things I post, spreading false rumors, asking photographers to edit her face like mine (the real situation 😂) or trying to destroy my collaborations made me start to develop symptoms such as overwhelming fear or su1c1dal thoughts 🙃🙃 I’m now under the care of a psychologist and today I had another - difficult visit. I can see how much fear and anxiety there are in me that paralyze me and prevent me from doing all the things I would like to do. I'm stubborn and ambitious, so I'm trying anyway, but I feel that I'm finally on my way to start being a real, non-afraid version of myself again. I'll do my best to fight this awful feeling 🙏🏻 Thank you if you read this to the end 💖 Your support helps me move forward anyway 🙏🏻💖