GODDDDDAMMITTTT I hate that the smallest things will throw me just fucking throw me and I canβt do the things I want to do bc I fixate on things and itβs just out of my control bc my brain is a fucking dud I swear I lobbed a sugar daddy (I canβt really be a sugar baby and he was super needy/lacked confidence) and I blocked my #1 supporter by a mile. I wanted to do longer, really well-done PPVs. Like 5-8mins for $20 or something but WORTH IT. Now Iβm like cool I had a minor inconvenience so Iβll send a couple mins at a time for $4-6 each bc I canβt focus anymore. πππ₯²