

π±πππ ππππ Me and my submission. Idk where this plans to go but itβs a topic I wanted to talk about. I grew up in a broken home, I grew up abused from family and lovers, I didnβt know what any type of healthy relationship looked like because I had literally nothing to go off of. I was independent from a VERY youngg age because I had to be, and had to learn a lot of hard lessons as a βyoungg adult,β like being in trouble with the law, a bankruptcy, not having a family to fall back on, a failed engagement, an abusive lover, a broken back etc. the point of that is, I only knew how to be strong, independent, and dominating in every aspect of my personal life because I NEVER knew safety. The idea of submitting let along the idea of calling someone βdaddy,β was more of a silly joke to me, because honestly I didnβt trust anyone to have my best intentions, to know what Iβd like and need, to be able to take care of me in anyway- because I was shown time and time again that I was not safe enough to ever let my walls down. I met sunny last year- we started dating last December and it was immediately different. We were friends, I wasnβt supposed to love him, but I didnβt have a choice- when I looked at him I felt a type of safety I had never experienced, something I would do anything for, something I would follow to the end of the earth. He saw my traumas, my uglies, my angryβs- and he patiently waited with me to work through these feelings- never matching my energy, never hurting me, allowing me to shut down and patiently waiting for me to open back up- he gave me space to work through a lot of scary stuff, never judged me for it, never used it against me, instead only listened and only gave solutions when I was ready for help. Iβm not a submissive at heart, Iβm a surviver at heart, but for the first time in my life I get to be a version of my self that is vulnerable, safe, and used like the little whore that I always wanted to be. My wish for everyone is that they find that vulnerable self- alone or with a partner, we all deserve to feel safe, loved, and supported. You are loved π