How difficult it is to struggle every day with the thoughts ..
Added 2024-08-09 13:13:10 +0000 UTCHow difficult it is to struggle every day with the thoughts and emotions that poison the soul. It's so draining that you don't have the energy to live life.
These thoughts arise as if from nowhere and cause such a barrage of heavy emotions that sometimes it seems that you will not be able to breathe. And such moments happen 10-15 times a day, they are impossible to control and remove even with antidepressants.
I am helped only by shooting images for you, heavy strength training, physical labor, reading scientific literature.
Paradoxically, but for the last 1.5-2 years I can't exercise properly because of my health and the events that have happened. It provokes deterioration of mental state and physical health.
Every month it's like I'm trying to climb out of the hole, but I get pushed back in.
How do I not stop trying? To realize that it could be even worse and no one can save me, only myself. And I don't have much time left to live, and in connection with the war - probably not even a little.
Even psychotherapy doesn't help me. It's frightening.
But I'll try to climb out of the pit again. As long as my faith is still alive.
I hope you'll never know what it is
