lmao ok the stripper pole fundraising attempt flopped hard! ..

lmao ok the stripper pole fundraising attempt flopped hard! i wanted a pole but if y’all don’t wanna see that, then i’ll abort the mission, i won’t put that content here. it’s ok, it happens.

yes my ego is butthurt but some things in life are not meant to be 🐝 you win some, you lose some. life is a series of failures and successes that are cyclical. it can be weird doing something like this tho: it’s the dark side of this job where my self-worth kind of relates to the money i make by being me. some days are really good and i’m happy and proud of myself, almost to the point of disbelief; other days that don’t go so well, part of is like ugh this sucks i wanna crawl into a hole and just give up, and part of it is like, oh this totally makes sense because i suck and am undeserving. this is gonna happen inevitably, so i’ve gotten better at detaching and dissociating. on the days that suck, i try not to get so sad anymore, and the days that are great, i try not to get manic. 🕊

sorry to get so like ~real~ lol but i believe in sharing my true thoughts here too. underneath my B cups i have a heart and it is very emo. if you don’t like it, you can cancel your subscription any time. overall i love doing this so much, but like with anything else, there’s cycles. when dealing with this kind of shit, therapy and grounding helps me organize my thoughts. i just try to not take it personally, which can be challenging when i’m literally exposing myself out there lol

everything in this life is fleeting and temporary as fuck, none of this is even real, and the mistakes we make we learn from and move on. this gives me some kind of peace of mind. i don’t think i will be doing any more fundraisers lmao! done! i am scarred for life haha

to the one extra great person who contributed to the original post yesterday lol i’m gonna send you a VIP package of something super special. ✨💕✨ haven’t decided what that is yet, but you’ll get a surprise in your inbox after i’m back home from this trip. i might buy something hot from the stripper stores / sex shops in Las Vegas and show them off to only you! wohoo 🎰🤑 Vegas baby! ✨ seXXXclusive ✨

anyway, here are your slutty pics of the day. swipe for close-ups of my beautiful glitter breasts ✨💕✨ would you risk it to lick my sparkly biscuit? 😳