Hey Lovelies I hope your all having a great Easter weekend s..

Hey Lovelies I hope your all having a great Easter weekend sorry I have been so quite sometimes my own thoughts weight me down and I forget that there are peeps out there that are in the same boat and want/need to chat to someone. This weeks gonna be a tough one for me five years ago on this day everything was perfect and balanced full of excitement about our granddaughter coming any day now just when shes was ready thats all we were waiting for. Since this week five years ago life has been one hell of a ride I cared full time for my terminally husband as well as plan our wedding cause you know and wrk my part time job that I have and then two years ago was the 1 and only time that it was a close call for my ex husband he passed away at the end of the month he was so kind not to ruin Easter for me (joking) and then I have had to put down three of our fur babies they were old it was there time all in the 1st year of him being gone. well April this year is rocking a little different. Though not really I lost my mum three weeks ago to medical reasons. The thing that keeps me smiling and positive is my gratefulness of what I have right in front of me. So most may have worked out that I am not like most of the content thats available for you to choose from but I do reply to dms. I will consider thats not causing harm to myself or others (animals, self harm now this can be emotional and physical). I Hate feeling like I let people down, for many years I had to live like that being out of it I can see my issues but I LOVE How much more I am starting to feel like myself and thats through others sharing their kinky ideas with me if its something I would do then it ill become most of the stuff I will be posting. other than that I am gonna start doing raffles pretty much I am that kinky chick mate who will give you what you want to keep you happy so your life is jst that little bit better. If you dont then I will jst doing some of the stuff that I have been asked to do for money but they never paid or dropped their nuts and didnt get back to me FEET people its all good that your over the top into feet one of my guy mate is to and thats how an now Loved hobby of mine came about got another couple that are into water sports. Come on I dare you hit me with the creative kinky stuff. self play way to easy and I get bored TBH short attention span with a quick as mouth and one good as growling voice hey you could make me pi*s me off pay me to video my response and you will have it for a life time. I am not a whore, slut, working girl or even webcam girl when I finally start doing them time has to be well spent especially my time I cant get that back and its the most valuable thing I own that doesnt cost anyone anything. But expecting it with nothing in return for me is expected two way streets in my world. I have had every bit taken til I was a very weak version of myself doing this is empowering that everything that was once held against me was really jst my strength that I will always look out for me cause I am sorry but all I seem to have to done on here is being a very boring person and thats not me so June 2021 will be my one year of doing my new hobby and creating my brand space for my peeps tp explore to what ever limits they want. I am looking for a female whos in New Zealand and keen to hang create some content what that will be as I have said is TIME give me something to do in the mean time, I DARE YOU TO DM WHATEVER YOU HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO ASKED SOMEONE TO CREATE FOR YOU BUT YOU JUST HAVENT NO QUESTIONS ARE WRONG!!!!!!! but I may not be into it as much as we are thats where if you put the effort in the rewards will come cause I got no else thats gonna convince me to give new things ago apart from me and I am a bit boring with ideas for you guys so I welcome you all to take the chanellege as I have one to I will have to be more active and he who knows I might jst have live chill out time with whoever wants to join me. But please note there wont be any naughty time with myself happening I know I am sad but its just one of the things I am working who said personal growth was a bad thing. like this walk i did with a couple of friends all I asked was a easy as butt shot three shoots each and three I dont like at all but here they are as its me at my finest.