One thing I’ll do when I quit OnlyFans: I’ll buy a dress/ski..

One thing I’ll do when I quit OnlyFans: I’ll buy a dress/skirt/clothes/lingerie that I actually like, not because they make my butt or boobs look good, or because John will like it (that’s what I’ll call a potential or real subscriber to my page).

For the last three months, I’ve had a paid page, and I’ve had to think a lot more about how to please people. This has messed me up and trapped me in a rigid structure. My day off? Sunday. I go and create content for the page for the week. I come up with posts to get likes and to make sure John clicks the heart on my posts here. I go shopping and choose clothes to attract more of an audience and more Johns. What dress will get more Johns to like it?

For John to like me, I need to go to the gym and avoid sweets and fatty foods. My body has changed, and now I’m in the perfect dress. John will definitely like me now.

John didn’t like me. I’m a very driven girl, and if I have a goal to please John, I’ll go for it no matter what. It’s a great quality, but not this time.

And the lingerie? Do you know the whole catch about lingerie for models of my rank? We buy the cheapest lingerie because, after a while, John will get bored of it and find it dull. You need lots of lingerie, but I can’t afford a lot of expensive lingerie. Or a lot of expensive dresses, for that matter. So, in the end, you buy a lot of cheap stuff.

I tried so hard to make this page soulful yet a bit naughty to improve the world over the last three months: daily diverse content, social media, analytics, putting in the hardest efforts.
But I decided to let it go and just be myself.

Forget about these three months of effort and striving to be liked.
Why do I need to be liked anyway? (Renewals, I just wanted to increase the number of renewals because if I make the page perfect, John will renew his subscription.)

And I really hope that one day, I’ll write:
John, I bought a new dress.

p.s. I've bought the dress