I’ve been on OF for 1,5 years and I have changed over this t..
Added 2024-08-27 15:00:22 +0000 UTCI’ve been on OF for 1,5 years and I have changed over this time. As a model, I do everything myself and at some point I’ve become too obsessed with making sure to do something that will make other people like me. I think this is professional deformation.
But I hope that I am on a right way to fix it.
My life circumstances:
I will go to the gym in a simple worn out outfit because I am not planning to make videos today. That means that I’ve bought some nice gym outfits not for myself. I bought them for ‘John’ and to make sure that he likes the outfit and therefore likes me too. Trifles, which my life used to consist of, also a lot of filming and obligations made y life like this. Now I at least wear nice outfits even when I am not filming any videos. I’ve bought myself a dress. It is not tight, it doesn;t make me super sexy. it is made of good material. And I hope that I will buy more.
And I will try to be myself and do something for myself. I even started going to the gym so that ‘John’ likes my body. And not for myself and my health and body.
I am changing and I hope everything will be ok. And have you noticed any changes in your life and attitude to life recently?
