Oh jeeeeez hiiiiiiii! Before the rant: pics of my backyard a..

Oh jeeeeez hiiiiiiii! Before the rant: pics of my backyard and all the cool things in it hehe I've been rly mentally stunted from what's been going on and it affects how I post/don't post. I turn into a shell 🙊😣 im rly sorry to ppl I have to reply toooo, I promise I'll hit chu back w something spicy 🦂 Idk why everytime I wanna get back into the flow of things something disrupts everything completely 😢 😭 i am so wanting to go live but i cant stop fuckin crying and its just insane how little help ive received..after my site said it could start accepting Buy Now Pay Later, it's been a nightmare and nothing but failed orders for a month,(last pic on here shows some) and 55 messages back and forth with both big cartel and my payment processor stripe. It's an API integration that is done by big cartel so they have control over the coding and everything. And i have so much art to post but I go and look to see all these fuckjng orders that I never got notified about, that just R failing. I emailed a couple people and they said it's my site timing out/not accepting afterpay for AU customers which is total bullshit. They then blamed it on afterpay and since no one is helping me, I probably will have to start a new account, clean slate with Stripe. Theres sooooo much to unpack on that site i feel i could have also pressed something wrong and who tf knows 😵‍💫🥺 Here's alot of finished art and I wanna list it, so I probably will but if anyone does try to purchase something and it fails for you pls let me know what happened, it's so confusing and I don't know how to run my business right now because of this I'll be on here alot more, as I try to basically recreate my whole shop with the same goddamm asshole fucks but I have no other option cause everything else has more cons than pros compared to big cartel EEEEEEEP IM SORRY FOR THE RANT it's just this has been the only thing I've been doing since I arrived here, I put this goal up for the amount of failed orders that happened on behalf of my fuckin site, and I would be more than happy to send you a dope piece of art or a print 💫 im not expecting it to hit it at all I just appreciate u gaiz 🥹 I have my wishlist too full of important shyt I wanna get but can't atm, send me a dm if you snag anything, it means alot and I'll send you something in return toooo! https://a.co/2OL25Dt I was so excited to have everything fall into place here and this is a HUGEEEE fucked bump in the road for me, my shop is my life, and If it's not running right it kills me inside 🤕 it'll smooth out eventually I just need to find someone that knows what they're doing with api coding, and integrating, that would b so bomb hahaha I'm a v confused millennial when it comes to that shit How is erryoneeeeee????? I wanna post everyday I think about it and argue with myself and my anxiety always keeps getting the best of me, but I'll get thru dis, I wanna be more present for erryone 🥲🥰